“Oh, that’s where Jake’s sitting. You remember him, right?”
Apparently, I had lost all speaking abilities because I just shook my head.
“He’s my friend from La Push. Ring any bells?”
That’s when it hit me, tall, dark, and followed Bella around like a puppy.
That got me talking again. “Yeah, I remember now. I don’t think he liked me that much. He was always watching me like I was a fucking lab rat. Weird guy.”
Bella flushed and laughed. “He probably did that. You know that he’s--”
I cut her off. “Are you two dating now? I always thought he had the biggest crush on you.”
I had no idea where that came from, but Bella started shaking her head right as a person walked down our aisle.
“Of course I’m with Bells. You really didn’t expect her to wait around for you, did you?”
“Never. Bella was always far too good to wait around for me.”
I didn’t speak the rest of class. Bella didn’t try to talk to me. And Jacob looked so fucking smug it was unreal.
That was the day I started playing Mortal Kombat to keep from murdering the fucker in the middle of class.
It was also the day that my letters to Bella took on a pleading note. I begged her to still love me. I repeatedly wrote apologies for my actions, and continually added that I would appreciate her more now because I knew what I had lost.
I just needed a chance.
Over the next few weeks things got better between us. I would talk to Bella in class and a couple of times a week we would go get something to eat afterward.
It was as if I had actually sent her the letters as opposed to keeping them boxed up. It was almost like before we graduated high school. Except she was dating another guy, and I was pretending that I was dating her.
Yeah. In my mind, when we went out I was her boyfriend, lover, and best friend.
Don’t judge me.
I was living in a fantasy world, and it was great.
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